Hopes, Dreams, and Deer - By Kirk Howes
Watching the eastern sky turn from darkness to the red
promise of warmth, my hopes soared that I would see a
deer. The view was awesome, it always is. For a full
hour and a half, I had sat next to the big white pine tree
in total darkness.I drifted back
in time to last year when I saw the big bodied 8 pointer
chase a doe during the Black powder season. Perhaps
he still ran the valley; perhaps he was a ten or twelve
pointer this year.
While fishing for smallmouth bass in the
river, I had seen fawns that most likely were his
offspring. The winter was good on the deer, there
were plenty this season. I had seen a few sets of
twins.
The lush green food of the valley would
help them grow strong; the nut trees would give the deer
the fats they needed to survive the winters.
A fat Fox squirrel barked in a nearby
Hickory, waking me from the dreamy thoughts I had just
pondered. Another squirrel barked farther down near
the river bottom. Good year for squirrels, I
thought, maybe I’ll be back for the late season this year.
Once again my thoughts drifted back in
time to when as a young boy we camped out and hunted
squirrels from a base camp. Inspired by reading
about sheep hunts in the Alaskan ranges we did what we
could do as kids. Packing in the supplies and
hunting the big bushy tails as well as any sheep hunter
ever thought he could. Donning the best red and
black plaid shirts we could find, we dressed as the
hunters in Outdoor Life did.
We ate real well on those trips too.
Hmmm, to be a kid again.
Just like the one I had seen this
morning at 4:30 am near the road with his father.
They were hunting just a ways down on the ridge from where
I was. We spoke long enough to figure out where
everyone would be.
The Father told his son not to travel
too far to the north on the ridge as I was hunting near
the big pine. He promised not to and wished me good
luck. He said this was his first year hunting deer
and he was tired of squirrels.
He also blurted out they had seen a big
buck while scouting all summer. I covered the
mistake of him telling me that fact by saying I saw the
same big buck lots of times and there were plenty of deer
to hunt here. As we parted I heard the young lad
telling his dad “I’m sorry I was just excited”. His
father replied “Check Your Safety”
A red squirrel chattered out from the pines, and then a
blue jay cried out an alarm call. I readied my self,
figuring a deer was coming up the trail towards me.
I could hear the foot steps. Too loud I thought, must be
the kid from this morning; I’ll bet he is lost. The
foot steps grew louder in the cold dry leaves. “We
could use some snow to quiet thing down a bit out here”, I
said to myself.
A squirrel ran up a tree some 40 yards
away, I chuckled and thought “I’ll bet that kid is rock
solid on his stand”. I know I was my first few
seasons.
It was good light now and the wind was
switching, nothing in the valley would come my way now at
all. Happens every opener and yet I still sit in the
same spot, I just like the way the woods look in the
morning I guess.
Just as I was drifting into another episode of the past, a
twig snapped behind me. Squirrel I thought. I
turned my head slowly towards the trail that lead to the
young hunters stand. By God there he is!
Master of the woods, old ghost, iron sides!
My gun was up and moved to the boiler
room of the biggest deer I had seen alive to date.
My finger almost touched the safety when my mind reeled in
thought. “What if that big buck was to travel down
the trail to the kid?” “What if that kid shot a big
buck?” “What if I shot a buck like that at his age?”
“Imagine how proud his family would be.”
These thoughts raced thru my mind at
light speed and it seemed like forever he stood quartered
away looking down the trail. My gun held fast to him
he moved down the trail. I was shocked at my self
for passing up the chance to shoot, how could I not shoot?
I must be stupid! Idiot! Fool! I was surprised
beyond my own imagination.
What seemed like forever was more like
10 minutes. The morning silence was broken by a
single shot. I thought I even heard a whoop of joy.
“Atta boy” I thought,” I hope it was you, kid.”
Curious I walked down the ridge a ways.
From the second bend in the trail I could see the young
hunter cutting his deer, his father patted the back of a
son he was so proud of this day. In the calm of the
woods I heard the boy say” Can you believe it? He walked
right up behind me.” “Biggest Damn deer I ever saw”
said the father.
With that, I turned back up the trail
and headed to the truck. I wished for that to be me
some 30 years ago, but it wasn’t in my cards. I imagined
the young man telling the story over and over to his
buddies for yrs to come. I imagined the Father
showing off the pictures at work. I thought of how
their Thanksgiving table would be, would it have a side
dish of Venison on it?
I made my way to the North, the skies
dark with the promise of snow. As I passed the stand
I was at I looked on the ground. I saw two sets of
tracks behind my stand. One turned away sooner than
the buck that went down the trail. Big tracks!
Well maybe it was a bigger buck and
maybe there’s hope for me yet. I hope its tomorrow. |